okays, while typing about all this crap here, baby is at indochina clubbing with some friends, while i am ban from clubbing because baby says so. okays, hmm. anyway, girls are always right no? xP i trust her that she won't do or have anything funny behind me, so well, i dont really bother. well, thats not the main point of this post. tomorrow there's crap band prac from 10-5 ? and i'm fucking sick now? sore throat coming to fever. i think im not going to band with this kind of shit state, and i got loads of shit to complete by monday. fcuk. anyway, i'm sitting here and rotting, and i shall predict that baby would not sleep today as usual, and i hate that. cranky-ness comes after that though, for most girls proven to be correct. LOLS. ~heart pains

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The Sanctuary or Nude? omg. i can't imagine.

born with rashes, burn myself to ashes,
where no one cares, where no one knows,
what you did and how you die.
this pathetic world of mine, where images are black and white,
resembles a joker card, there a card deck formed.
52 cards, 1 box, 1 coffin, 1 death.

a fcuk-ed up me, with a fcuk-ed up poem. like wtf. sheesh.

okays, so here we go again. yesterday just spent $10.80 on cab fare to HCI for some bane xchange, 3 cookies and a small sprite for dinner from subway $4.50 (was supposedly to save on expenses) and lynx was ranting all the way home xD, cab fair to baby house $6.80, magnum ice cream for baby $4.00, cab fair home $10.00 = $36.10 on expenses in a day. woot, i have $50 a week, hmm, $50-$36= $14, $14/7 = $2. Yays, i should queue for japanese food everyday(cost $2 only!) join me anyone?

5months of hell, a bunch of hunks, 8 buff up packs, 1 suicidal. i know this can't be compared to you, and i know i can't be compared to them.
mind fcuking myself. sounds familiar though. quoted from my beloved since sept2008.
loves,bibi

I know that I've screwed up
Its hard when that shits around
I feel really bad now
because I've let you down

How can I let you know
I want to be so much more
All the things you deserve
Everything you've been looking for

I want to make you happy
Like a blessing from above
I want you to feel it from head to toe
Nothing but my love

I really am sorry
That I've screwed up again
I just have to keep fighting
Because I believe one day I'll win

I know I've really hurt you
This in turn hurts me
If only I could be stronger
And the person you want me to be

I will keep trying
Fighting the fight
Praying you don't give up on me
While I'm trying to get it right
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Live is a fcuked up virtual world. The end is so near, yet so far. How I wish I could end it all, this shit, this suffering, the end of life.
The days on my fcuked up schedule is INEVITABLY packed with bands practices for SYF. Like wtf?! Mondays to Saturdays, 6 days in a week, after school till 9pm. What's more fcuked up is that, I fcuking live in the north east, and like 80% of band ppl live in the west? Like wtf?! Imagine reaching home at 11pm every night and with homework at your head level. 1 word, Bravo. Teachers wants us to put in our best, but seriously, this is not about putting in out best, it's about whether its going to be effective. We do not have the comfort of living in the west, neither a car that will bring us home withing half an hour. After a day packed full of school, band comes, and transport home. The body tires out every night, well, I could bet that even before SYF, my fellow battle mates will soon die off of exhaustion. Well, my mama will be furious of course, let's see how.

** THIS POST IS A GENERAL POST, NOT TO BE DATED.

okays, it's been ages since i blog, because i have certainly no time to even online during weekdays. wtf, every day coming to back from home at 9pm? going to school at 630am? this sucks, totally. what's more is that Stupid SYF band compy is comming up, Project Work starts to stress, and homework never ending. and 1 thing i hate about band? last minute informer. eg. tomorrow got band, today than say. totally wtf. hello! not everyone lives at the WEST AREA, and not everyone has NO PLANS ON EVERYDAY. zzz pissed. gf says i'm not spending enough time for her, but i'm trying to balance my life baby. i hope you understand it's not i didn't want to talk to you at nights, it's i have slept on my table doing homework. it's tough for you i know, but i hope you understand, it's tough for me too, espically in a fucked up school like Millennia Institute.

pissed at school,
pissed at project work,
pissed at homework,
pissed at not having 28 hours in a day,
pissed at nobody but only,
myself.

mickey is still da best.
he always smiles .... but,
why i can't be like him?