Dear diary,

I guess i'll be talking to you in this form. Well, my apologies for the long delay of this post. Recently I've been to this thai pub. Well, just to chill with some friends, and NOTHING OTHER ELSE! haha. Anyway, the I realised that thai songs are actually not bad! Serious, no joke man. It's kinda catchy and meaningful (based on the directly translations of course!) I'll be posting some of the Music Videos and Songs in this update, trust me, it's awesome. Well, it's not really a dancefloor in there, but it's more like of a show entertainment with drinks? But it's awesome to chill in there.

Oh oh oh, I've recently get myself a nice small mic! Anyone can skype with me or MSN chat with me =))

krai bok ter waa chan mai yom bpert dtua eng hai krai kao maa
Who told you that I won't open my heart to let others enter?

nang jom yoo gap naam dtaa meuan kon kee pae
Sit and drown in my tears like a loser.

krai bok ter waa chan mai long hai krai-krai kao maa doo lae
Who told you that I won't try and allow anyone to come and care for me?

jaak wan tee ter mai kae lae leum chan bpai
From the day you didn't care and forgot about me comletely.

meua mai rak mai dtong wang dee yoot maa son chan tee daai mai
If you don't love me, you don't have to wish me well. Stop lecturing me alright?

mai dtong sang chan hai bpai rak krai
You don't have to tell me who to love.

ter roo a-rai kae nai gap kam waa tor-ra-maan
What do you know about suffering?

taa bplian jai bpai rak krai daai chan rak bpai laew
If I can change my mind and love someone else, I would've done so.

sak kon tee mee kae chan mai lok hai rak hai ror laew gor ting gan
A person who has only me, who doesn't deceive to make me love and wait for him and then leave me in the end.

sang jai hai leum ter daai kong leum bpai laew
If I can tell my heart to forget about you, I could've done so.

mai dtong jep hai sia nam dtaa ton jep took wan took wan
Don't have to be hurt and cry to suppress the pain everyday.

kae pror chan mai geng yaang ter
And it's all just because I'm not as terrific as you are.

jep tee chan yang kit teung ter gor mai chai pror chan on ae
It hurts when I still miss you, it's not because I'm weak

dtae gaan ja leum rak tae mai ngaai rok na
but because it's not easy to forget a love so true.

kon yaang ter mai koie rak jing
People like you has never truly love someone.

yaak ja ting gor kong mai naan
It's probably not too long for you to leave.

yaa mong waa jai kong chan ja ngaai meuan ter
Do not ever think that my heart is as simple as yours.

meua mai rak mai dtong wang dee yoot maa son chan tee daai mai
If you don't love me, you don't have to wish me well. Stop lecturing me alright?

mai dtong sang chan hai bpai rak krai
You don't have to tell me who to love.

ter roo a-rai kae nai gap kam waa tor-ra-maan
What do you know about suffering?

taa bplian jai bpai rak krai daai chan rak bpai laew
If I can change my mind and love someone else, I would've done so.

sak kon tee mee kae chan mai lok hai rak hai ror laew gor ting gan
A person who has only me, who doesn't deceive to make me love and wait for him and then leave me in the end.

sang jai hai leum ter daai kong leum bpai laew
If I can tell my heart to forget about you, I could've done so.

mai dtong jep hai sia nam dtaa ton jep took wan took wan
Don't have to be hurt and cry to suppress the pain everyday.

kae pror chan mai geng yaang ter
And it's all just because I'm not as terrific as you are.

(Interlude)

taa bplian jai bpai rak krai daai chan rak bpai laew
If I can change my mind and love someone else, I would've done so.

sak kon tee mee kae chan mai lok hai rak hai ror laew gor ting gan
A person who has only me, who doesn't deceive to make me love and wait for him and then leave me in the end.

sang jai hai leum ter daai kong leum bpai laew
If I can tell my heart to forget about you, I could've done so.

mai dtong jep hai sia nam dtaa ton jep took wan took wan
Don't have to be hurt and cry to suppress the pain everyday.

kae pror chan mai geng yaang ter
And it's all just because I'm not as terrific as you are.

taa bplian jai hai rak krai daai chan rak bpai laew
If I can change my mind and love someone else, I would've done so.

sak kon tee mee kae chan mai lok hai rak hai ror laew gor ting gan
A person who has only me, who doesn't deceive to make me love and wait for him and then leave me in the end.

sang jai hai leum ter daai kong leum bpai laew
If I can tell my heart to forget about you, I could've done so.

mai dtong jep hai sia nam dtaa ton jep took wan took wan
Don't have to be hurt and cry to suppress the pain everyday.

kae pror chan mai geng yaang ter
It's all just because I'm not as terrific as you are. 

(English translation is not that correct. Just a rough guide)
Didn't bluff you right?

Dear most-awesomely-diary,

It's been so long since I've talked to you! Hope you ain't rusting and wasting bandwidth on blogger.com! Sigh* Today was a terrible day for me =( but also a happy one =) sounds contradicting yeah? Nah, it all started out when I tried to sync my iPhone with the computer. I tried syncing the application and BOOMZ! All my application can't startup! WTF? and I spent 2 hrs fixing it =.= was very pissed. After that pathetic 2 hours, all the paid apps can't be started, only the free ones. Now i need to find Pauline and Amelia for help again! So paiseh can. 2nd thing that pisses me off today was it was fcuking raining when I need to go for tuition! WTF?! Spent $15 on cab fair. WTF. Next week i shall go on a diet man. So fcuking no money.

After tuition was a little better because I was meeting hunny! YAY YAY! Called and text her, no reply. She told me her both phones spoiled. So I'm not sure whether she received my texts or call at all. I'm so disappointing feeling you know. Like sometime I just wanna talk to her, and when I call her or text her, there's no reply. Stupid phones. Anyway, my feelings was greatly raised when she said she could meet me at Paya Lebar MRT for dinner than back home. Than came the next horror. SO SO SO coincidentally, her devilish auntie came home and KPKB at her. So we both became a victim of that ... sigh* She had to pack her room before she can leave the house, and I on the hand, had to wait for her at Paya Lebar MRT for 1 hour staring into nothing. It's just a 15 min bus ride I thought, but than, that ... made unnecessary trouble for the both of us. sigh* was having a severe gastric pain because i rushed down from temp and had not eaten anything since ever. Mood was totally off, the pain was exacerbating.

Well she finally arrived! My mood was down, hers, was worse than mine. Her tone was "want-to-fight" tone when she spoke to me. Heart broke. Naturally, it made me pissed after a few of her "challenging" sentences. Walked to KFC, didn't want to eat anything because wasn't really feeling too good on having a gastric with KFC?! Anyway, she was still furious and gave me the look =( worse of all, she called me to go home =( heart broke x99, uncontrollably, shed a few tears. She asked me whether I got thing to say to her, obviously I had to say no. I didn't want to hurt her heart, and of course it's just the ... fault! It isn't our fault! Than she scolded me saying she fcuking don't need to deserve this. I was devastated. I was disappointed and heart broke again. To her, i seldom even say the word fuck in her face when we talked, because I feel it's ... very degrading, disrespectful to her. When other people say about my gf that she is fcuking this, fcuking that, I make sure he'll go home not recognizing his own father. What more should I even use the word fuck to my gf? When I know if I ever use that word, I would hurt her deeply, especially to the only girl I love the most in this world.

But in everything, I knew she had a bad day too. I can't blamed her for whatever she said right diary? She's the girl I love for god sake! She was awesome, bought KFC for me! Was kinda happy, but I HATE DRUMS AND BREASTS, and KFC gave me drums and breasts. WTF KFC?! Must you play me you SOB! Totally turn off, couldn't even lay my mouth into it. eww. Hunny thought I was giving her attitude, she of course was pissed. I was not in the best mood to hong her as I'm still having shitty gastric while controlling my tears. Than she called me to go home again as I wasn't feeling well. I wanted to say, I've waited for so long just to see you for this few mins, and now you want me to go home. I ... I ... really don't know what is my feeling. Heart break or disappointment. I guessed it's a mixture of both diary. She needed to rush to Suntec as her mum was pestering her. She was getting an MacBook =) felt happy for her! finally she could upgrade her all-so-old macbook. We took a cab to Suntec, splitted ways. I went to IT fair alone, saw a few friends though. Walked through all the levels, it's a massive chaos I would say. It's getting bigger and BIGGER every year!  

Had my KFC at the road side alone near the bus stop. My chicken, mash potato and coslaw was indulged in coke. Imagine soggy meat with coke, floating coke above the mash potato, and coke tasting coslaw. Yeah, that's it diary, I bet you wouldn't want to eat it! I wanted to throw, but hey, I won't okay. My hunny bought for me using her own money and she didn't want to claim it from me, means she would have lesser money to spend for herself already. Even her loan from me she didn't have the money to pay back, I cannot waste her effort and money. And so, I ate my dinner. Well, although it wasn't a good day for me, but at least she manged to reach in time and bought her MacBook, it was all worth it =)


and i took a bus home with so many people to my home about 40 mins away. What a day. sigh*

Todays Outfit: White T-Shirt + White Jeans + White iPhone + Sunglass (Nope, not white)

On Saturday, DRAGON BOAT TRAINING + BAND CNY PERFORMANCE + SLEEP LATE




Today is Sunday, It was suppose to be DAMN RELAX day for me, but of the DRAGONBOAT I just joined recently for school competition, my whole body is like = chui. Starting from the upper body onwards, it's like burning hot + strain + pain = chui. What's make matter more worst, slept at around 3am, woke up at around 8am to go church. (As usual), couldn't take it, doze off during sermon. I thought i slept for like 5mins, in the end, it's half hour! OMG. Hope he didn't see my face when he was preaching. LOL! Anyway, (as usual again) met Nicholas and the pianist-of-the-day Constance @ our usual day for a Talk Cock Session, and this week, we MANAGED to plan something for next week! HAHA, L4D2, but somehow, I think the plan will phail AGAIN! damn. Ate packet lunch in church, which I feel its economical (need to save $$, I'm poor) for the economical 'chai fan'. Well, since it's 'economical', it only fed the FAT-AARON 50% + a can of 'PURE' Coconut Juice IN A CAN =.=

After that, went down to baby's house to pass her her keys that I took the last time. SMS-ed her, didn't reply, so I thought that she would be asleep ba. Went to her door, wanted to open it, but than scared the "ROSHAN" awakened, so I humji put into her letterbox. LOLS. (ROSH LEH, i level 1 nia). After that, thought I could sleep when I reached home, but it was too late. Time to travel to the all-so-far-away temp for GP tuition. Was late (not as usual), took cab, $$ flew away when it was suppose to go into my savings. TMD. Shocked when I saw EDWIN wore all WHITE TOO! DAMN, SIBEIII GAY. But we are brothers, we have telepathy and this special chemistry between us. WTF.

Went home, ate dinner, last day of CNY, sian, no more good food for the rest of the year. Boring shite day when I'm suppose to sleep the whole day.

Now my body still aches. FCUK.

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