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"It just takes 2 weeks for me to fall in love with you"

"Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn't mean you love them any less, sometimes you even make sure you love them more."

"I'd rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else."

"Loving you needs no reason."

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Sunday, August 29, 2010

Title : Unexpected, Unforeseen, Unexplainable
Time : 11:41 pm

Hi guys! It's been a week again! and a rather UN week (UNexpected, UNforeseen, UNexplainable)!

First and foremost, the weather! Due to global warming and whatever shite the multi national companies are doing in whatever country, the weather is seriously, seriously, getting fcuked up i have to say. Just look at the sky one day, and you thought it was 6pm, but no! it's actually 3pm. This is my neighbourhood (for those who have drop by before), it's normally comparable to a furnace when it's 3pm, but look at this scarrryyy weather. Sometimes i whether 2012 is really the end of the world.

But than again, there's always a weather that i love the most, that is to see the sunset =)

The Sun and the clear Blue Sky always reminds me of summer holidays overseas (although I've not experience one before). I guess to me, this is beautiful. Especially when you're able to share what you see with your loved one.

In the car, other than taking pictures, I really wish she could see the same sky even when we're apart.

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Secondly, I've downloaded loads of Kpop songs. Okay, this is weird. As you all know, my iPod is either filled with Chinese or Dance (my friends called it emo & ahbeng) songs.But apparently, I've been sucked into the world of Kpop. (Okay, you must be thinking I don't even know SNSD is coming to Singapore and I'm too backward!) But ... I KNOW OKAY. HAHA!

(**Guys: Stop looking at the legs, Girls: Stop looking at thier hairstyle, dress and heels!)

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Thirdly! Apparently, I WON THE WORLD CUP! (don't wth me =x)

Now you know who really won the world cup isn't it? HAHAHA! (okay, it has nothing to do with TEAM MI, i swear)

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Fourthly, okay I have to confess something, i drew on a female's hand. This is something BIG alright! I don't or seldom draw on people's hand okay because ... my drawing is phail~ Okay, Aaron, enough of your embarrassment confession on your blog~ NEXTTTT

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Fith-ly, I got a new iPhone Casing! AhRon (my iPhone name) needed to be pampered at times you know. So I bought a new 'shirt' for him. I have to say ... it's too cool for him man.

Apparently, somebody said it changed sex and made me girly! Maybe I should change sex, hmm.

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Sixth-ly, after a month of Dance lesson from Studio Wu, I'm actually quite fascinated by the dress style these dancers wear. You know the XL shirts, the baggy pants, the Nike Dunks, the NYK Baseball hats. I guess I'm trying one of this days. So friends, don't be shocked! haha!

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Seventhly! Guo Shu Yao (Yao Yao) has released her new album! This is an ironic issue for me as I always hated singers that can't obviously sing, that gather fans based on her looks. SO one day, I decided to thrash that thought and downloaded her song. And hey, songs are not bad! Bravo to her song writers and lyricist, and also giving her credit for her hard work in trying to improve herself. (it's kinda obvious comparing her 1st and 2nd album). So a lesson learnt, don't make a judgement on people base on the first impression your mind thinks!
**Addidtional info, she's 20 and holds an E-cup =) so ladies ... yeah.

Real name: Guo Shuyao (郭書瑤)

Nickname: Yaoyao (瑤瑤)
Height: 155cm
Weight: 42kg
Profession : Singer, Model
Measurements: 33F/23/33
Birthday: 1990/7/18
Constellation: Cancer
Blood Type: AB
Place of Birth: Taipei
Family members: Mom, Dad, brother, sister
Language: English
Favorite food: see mood
Favorite animal: cat
Favorite color: white, black, pink
Favorite sport: dancing
Favorite dress: simple elegant
The most special expertise: dance
Motto: To strive to only grow!

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Updates: Songs updates (Kpop, YaoYao 1st&2nd album)

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Title : Can't Help But Think...
Time : 10:02 pm

It's a special day, that years back I would celebrate with a person. But thats was all past, that was history. I tried not to think about it, but sometimes, I just couldn't help it. Please don't get me wrong, the feelings is gone, and I sincerely wish you all the best in future. But I'm just being honest here, that sometimes memories flashbacks just occurs to me.

Once, I was listen to a girl (friend) of mine sharing her relationships problems with me, and some words that have still stuck with me for a long time. She said that

"There's no point looking at the past, What we have now is the future, and We should always look forward and make the best of it"

and I told her that saying was easy, but by actually doing it, it's not going to be easy. Well, but than again, after thinking about the conversation I had with her, I thought that whatever she said was actually quite true. I mean, what's the point of looking at the past, when you know, it's impossible to go back to the past again.

My point here is not about being emotional again by thinking of that special someone that was part of your life before, not about wanting to go back to the past to correct a mistake you've done, and not about not wanting to grow up and face life's challenges ahead of you, but it's all about waking up one day, and feeling happy just for the fact that you're actually still alive breathing in this world. Take a pause in your life, take time by looking around yourself, look at the people around you, look at the world around you, who genuinely cares for you, who uses their entire heart to love you, what has change ever since the past till now. Remember, what we have left now, is only the future. Treasure everyone that means something to you, make decisions that you won't regret. Do not care about what other people would think about you, but tell yourself that is the decision the best for yourself? Believe it or not, this world is cruel. There would be many people that would want to bring you down, whether or not you're easily being influenced by them, is really dependent on what your heart really believes in. The entire world, may say that your bestfriend/boyfriend is a fucking bastard, but if you really believe in your heart that he isn't that type of person, you would genuinely still have the trust in him only until you've really seen what he really is.

For me, my heart is stronger than my mind. I would follow what my heart more than what my mind tells me to do so. Because I know that even I'm hurt in the process, just by knowing that I did not let my heart down, I guess it's all worth it. Life is not all about being rational, being logically, being intelligent, sometimes, it's just all about yourself, your heart.

Title : THANK YOU ALL!
Time : 9:23 pm

Okays guys, this is weird ! (and kinda surprising though). Within just 4 days, the songs that I've uploaded on this blog, has nearly exceeded the bandwidth! (i'm using a free account!). Just happy that people are actually viewing this (dead) blog of mine! Geez, but if one day, when you wait for about 5 mins, and no song is played, my bandwidth is probably being exceeded, so my apologies ya (unless you donate to me for an account =x). THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT =) (please also tag yourself in the chatbox so at least I know who you are!)

**for this great support, I've added a new song by Nelly. Enjoy guys =)

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Title : I love the way you lie, seriously.
Time : 11:26 pm

Hi friends! The title of this post, is something i really liked (loved!). I've been hook on to this song for a couple of days already! and, i'm even trying to rap it out (okay, i know it's epic phail). but jokes aside, this song is AWESOMELY NICE. Ratings : 8/5 (+extra 3 for Eminem).

Aside of this awesome song, there's one more damn funny thing I saw today! I saw this mp3 by Samsung (although i personally hate Samsung) had this suuuuppperrr duuuppppeerrr cute figure on the 'Now Playing' list. O.M.G. i tell you, it's so damn cute, i can't stop laughing and just by looking it, it made me smile non-stop. That little 36x36 pixel small figure just heightens my mood man. I wish i had that mp3, but i think it's kinda too girly for me? HAHA. Ratings: 5/5 ! (full ratings because it REALLY lightens mood up!)

Credits: Miko;s mp3

and lastly, i was reading a very inspiring post by one of my friend. It's a post on marriage, but whether or not, you're in one, or just in a relationship, i guess it's really worth the time reading it :)

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

**treasure everyone, and most importantly, your friends, the people you love, the person you love dearly in your heart. Spend every second together with them like it's the last time you're going to see them. This really changes my perception on the people i'm with, i treasure you guys, especially you.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Title : Dear John....
Time : 1:08 pm

Dear John,
one of the most beautiful movies i've ever watched. Although ending was kinda abrupt, but the overall story line was ... sweet. The movie of course is fictional, but i guess it could have happened to some people at some point of time. This movie is a 'must watched!' because i rate it 4.6/5! -0.4 for crappy ending. It made me tear at some point of time, with a mixture of soothing beautiful soundtracks and sad moments, i guess a person like me could be easily feel touched by the movie =) yeah, so download it, buy it, rent it, just watched it.

The plus points of watching this movie?

1. It sets another 'benchmark' for guys to treat their ladies well again.(doesn't all love stories does that?)

2. Couple will tend to stop complaining about lacking of time together and spend every single second being together, just for each other. Just to see her/him for 1 more second, he/she will thank god for that.

3. Ladies will think that the Army is kinda cool actually because it buffs the guy up.

4. "Dear John Was Somewhat True"

The BAD points?

1. It't too idealistic, it's a fiction, it's fake, admit it.

2. It creates an illusion to ladies that, "omg, i wish my bf in the army could do such stuff to me" blah blah.

3. "Benchmarks", "Standards" would be set for either sex, expecting more(or less) from either party.

** SPOILERS

Every time i watched a love movie, it always leaves this bittersweet feeling in me.(?) It's beautiful to watched, the audience loves it, but than again, it shapes the society into subconsciously forming their minds, shaping the way people look at things. An simple illustration, who says iPhone or Mac is the 'best' & 'cool' products? It's because these products are being advertised on these US movies randomly. So yeah, ladies; this is just a movie, guys; this is just a movie. Just my 2 cents worth of advice =)

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